WOW! Suspicions of Multiple Myeloma. WTF? That’s what this back pain is? Holy Shit. What now? These are my feelings, my thoughts – MY RANT. Its not about the blood work, the x-rays showing “multiple lucent lesions” either. Its about getting it out – dealing with it – and most importantly BEATING THIS FUCKING SHIT UP!
Helene and I went to the doctor today and this is what we found. Strength. I need to be strong. It’s so hard to be strong when all I can think about is Helene, Victor and Ava. Every picture I have in my mind of them makes me cry. I lost it outside Dr. Eidus’ office. He called it a hurdle. Its gonna be tough but I can do this.
Helene, Victor and Ava – I love you guys more than you will ever, ever know. You guys don’t deserve this pain. How do you cope with this? I will be strong. I promise.
bradstrong 